my thoughts on the vikings...

those of us who are minnesota sports fans that werent old enough to understand how awesome it was that the twins won the WS in '87 and '91, have suffered thru a lifelong drought of bullshit and dissappointment. there have been 2 close calls over the past decade or so, the 1997 gophers making the final four which is basically the super bowl of college bball and the epic failure of the 1998 vikings. the sad part is the ncaa stripped the gophers of their 1997 final four and 1998 nit title over a widespread academic scandal. too bad the ncaa cant take away how sweet it was to watch the gophers come from behind to beat clemson in a 2ot thriller in the sweet sixteen, then to top that with a win over the favored #2 seed ucla in the elite eight to reach the final four. suck on that ncaa. also, i recall bobby jackson nailing a 3 late in second half of the final four vs kentucky that gave us the lead, unfortunately it didnt last very long.... but i remember freaking out...again suck on that ncaa. but officially speaking, i guess we didnt even have a team those years. obviously right, we are minnesota fans.
then the infamous 1998 nfc championship game. i remember exactly where i was for the game. i actually watched it by myself in my parents basement. i think that i get a little to exited at times during games and its probably better for everyone that i be put in solitary confinement. us minnesotans will always recall the game as the miss that kept us out of the super bowl, while falcons will remember it as the drive. the one play i remember where i think i finally lost faith was when o j santiago caught a 30 or so yard pass that put them into vikings territory in OT.
so, to start off the 1998 season we drafted a guy named ahhhh randy moss, most viking fans might have heard of him. he would go on to making our regular playoff team into a superbowl favorite single handedly. what does that have in common with 2009...hmmm, well i guess we went out and picked up a guy by the name of brett favre, and drafed percy harvin, whom has had that same affect. there are many similarities that have made me excited about this year...1998 we played on MNF at greenbay in week 4 where both teams were 4-0, and ironically farve was the QB and we crushed them. in 2009, we played the packers week 4 at home on MNF while 3-0 with favre as our QB and crushed them yet again. it almost seemed like the pieces were starting to fall in place.......to be continued

day 1 in the bag...

so i started my stake today. i thought i was running kinda bad but according to my equity chart i wasnt so wahteves. i still dont believe in that stupid thing, thats probably coz i dont really pay much attention nor really care. i lost a few big hands that were inevitable but played good for the most part imo. i played 2 hands kinda bad.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?3944862

this was pretty early into my session, happened to be my first all in of the day. when i first sit down i like to create a loose passive image, so i like to open just about anything reasonable. my first mistake is probably opening this hand utg, which looks strong but is probably a -ev play over the long run. so obviously i smoke a flop against a 38/12 guy, who seems to be calling everything, i only had about 100 hands on him but i think thats more then enough to get a read on a donk. so he leads, and obviously i have raise a board like that, and i want to try and stack him by the river. so when he flats, im thinking QJ or maybe somthing like KT or AT, i would think he was shove 8- 10, 9, 7 on flop but when he leads i guess that card seems like a good one to bluff but when i look back at it he probably wasnt since he pot stuck himself, it definitely seems silly to lead with QJ there. so given the fact that he just might have 2pr or QJ i decided to ship on this clown and he shows A8, kinda felt like i should have saved some money there for sure. this is a leak that i need to fix now before it cost more more monies in long haul. there was a few other hands also but im off to get a drink. hopefully tomorrows grind goes well.

March is here WOOOT....

so far march has been uneventful for the most part but its only the 3rd, wow i have way too high expectations...i guess livin the dream brings in some high demands. hmmmm, more i think about it, its probably impossible to live the dream in fucken North Fargo or anywhere in this area for that matter. if i didnt have ties to this area i would have been gonzos a long effin time ago. so anyways on to poker. when you play poker, well anyways for me i like to go month to month from an income standpoint. the start of a new month always seems like a new beginning. so far this month i havent played, thats about to change dramatically tomorrow. its time to shut it down, lock myself in my room, and hopefully crush every clown that tries to get in my way. i have been looking at peoples results at the level that im going to be playing and its pretty sick the amount of money that the top players are winning, there is no excuse for me not to be among them. i plan on making this damn list this month and months to come. im probably what you would call a lazy poker player, that is going to change. so, what i have decided to do is take a stake. which is probably not the best way for me to about things considering im not ever worried about losing, but it will motivate me to play. something needs to be done. a friend of mine is going to loan me 10k, i am going to grind the shit out of 200nl and benefit 70 percent of my winnings over 80k hands in 31 days. if i play any less then 80k hands he will get 50 percent of my rakeback and my earnings which is unacceptable. i will make sure i get my hands in. this is one way to get me back on pace to accomplish what i want out of poker. i have been doing this way to long to not be fucken RICH by now, by my standards anyways. this will be a win, win for both of us i think in the end. If at the end of the 31 days i like whats going on with the stake deal, we will work out another deal for 2/4, not sure whats going to happen in the end but i cannot lose a dime out of deal, in hindsight if i cant beat 200nl over 80k hands someone should probably just shooot me in the face or atleast give me a swift kick to the nuts.
the past year has been good to me for the most part, i have made a decent amount of money, met some people that have impacted my life in a positive ways and learned some pretty valuable life lessons. my daughters have grown so much, and more and more become a bigger part of my life. even tho i have to admit im not the best dad at times, i have go about things in a differant way then others. certain people have made me realize my faults, and opened my eyes to things i can and cannot do. if i fail at many things in life one thing i cannot do is fail as a father, i need to take that more into perspective i think, lucky for me my family and friends are nothing short of amazing. im pretty sure if i ever needed anything i can go to a certain group of people and have no worries about just about anything. a few things i do regret this past year is being lazy alot of the time, i really dont have much to do most the time other then play poker and i slack at that. this needs to come to an end also, i need to go back to school, or find a hobby of some kind. maybe ill just learn to play the piano or something, chicks dig that shit i think. rosetta stone is another thing im interested in, speaking multiple languages would be useful, and something that seems fun learning. so, speaking french, being rich, and playing the piano seems like something that might even get me into megan foxs pants, that would be quite the story, shit she might even take me out to dinner huh miller. another thing i have learned in past year is not taking people forgranted and not being a doooshbag. for the most part i dont think you really realize how you good you have it or what something means to you until its gone, and sometimes i guess thats what needs to happen to get your mind right. its like electricity or not having a car for a few days, its going to drive you insane when you dont have it, but you dont really think about it when you do. i also need to work on my bar manners, evidently i can be a huge clown sometimes, i have been kicked out of bars before and i usually claim its not my fault. sometimes its probably not but in reality i probably deserved most of them regardless if it was minuscule or not. and last but not least....DONT TRUST ANYONE, maybe your mom can be the exception or a select few friends. people are always looking out for number one, i think have learned that the hard way for the most part.
so, on that note, from here on out i plan on getting back to where i was a year ago from a poker standpoint over the next few months. and everything else should fall into place nicely. i have my holdem manager now, a new name to play on, rakeback is good to go, all i need to now is put in the time. planning on big month, anything short of this is going to be a dissappointment.
oh ya almost forgot, i still dont have my 2k, shit i dont have $1 of that. no phone call from daddy yet since i left him a message, since apparently hes handling his daughters fuck ups now. i guess when you are 26 and cant take care of yourself who else are you supposed to go to? i guess you just steal from your ex bf and move on like its OK? i hope your new wonderbra from victorias secret is comfortable. i will continue to blog about this matter until i have heard something positive or negative about the situation. if i get negative facecrushing i think will have to inevitable...so thank you very much, no fuck you very much. im off to bed..big day tommorrow.

your piss poor morally...

so, as for poker, i would like to fly to los angeles and play in rush hour traffic blind fold and see what happens. been running/playing bad past few days. im what i would like to call in a poker slump, its probably comparable to ichiro hitting .111 for a few months, ya that bad. i never worry about downswings in poker because variance is a huge part of being a gambler...take it or leave it , it is what it is. but on a positive note i havent played any 6max i have lost everything at 200 plo, ran absolutely horrid, ill go back to that game after a few more days maybe weeks of grinding out some more NLHE. My god i need to just sit down and start crushing again, walk on water maybe a few days get some confidence back. once you start owning a few clowns it all starts falling into place again.
as for life outside of poker i have been a boozehound as of late. hell, who doesnt like to drink. im confident that 70-72 percent of the greatest times of my life happened when i was either buzzed up nicely or blacked. i have some funny stories to tell, but ill save those for another time. well last sunday mornin as i was sleepin i overhear krup talking with sully saying that he didnt think he drank enough the night before. this comment confused the shit out of me considering the fact that he was puking in my bathroom after bar then proceeded to pass out in my hallway with his ass all over the place, so i would love to know what he is like when he drinks "enough".
ahhh and finally to my 2k, thats a whole new ballgame of WTF. so well ya ahhh really shit huh maybe no yes, FUCK YOU. ill explain that into detail probably tomorrow also. not sure if a facecrush is still in affect, not sure if i can do it to her or not.

lost 2k the shady way....

so today i finally found out that my ex gf decided to spend the 2k that i lent her. she says she paid for her car but we both know she is lieing. that is garbage. she went shopping. she went to the express, victorias secret, macys, and a few other places for clothes...if she says otherwise it all a lie and she knows it. she only told me a few places that she went in the mall but its all just a huge lie. i could tell just by talking to her, i know it her bullshit all too well. she then took my money to the grocery store and shipped her pathetic friend who has stolen from her before 500,, lol nice work you fuck. i needed that shit for multiple reasons and im going to facecrush her tomorrow. this is not something im going to just let slide, at first i thought i was but as i thoughta bout it longer and longer i decided that she was just too shady to let off the hook. i have never stolen shit from anyone nor been shady my entire fucken life, and for this to happen after all i ahve done for this girl is beyond unreal. im off to bed now the girls are going to be up in a few hours and are going to be beggin for some breakfast way too early for my liken.

took down a DONKament....

so i havent really been playing at all past few days, probably get back into that tomorrow sometime. but since my last session i have probably played 200 hands of break even poker and some HU plo where im up round $600 playing for about 10 minutes and quitting. thats probably why i havent really played. so anyways, went to big ds last night had a few drinks nothing eventful happened other then a few crazy blackjack hands. seriously if there was no such thing as blackjack i would be rich i think. i lost like 40 bucks or something, but i hate losing with a passion. chris showed up around midnight to give us a ride home at close since he worked close to there. when we got home we decided to play a little tourney with about 190 people or so in it for $26. ususally its just donk around, never really care, go all in with crap, and go to bed. well tonight we won a few hands early and then the starting to care set in. A few hours later we found ourselves at the final table and took it down. 1st place was nothing special but for a late night little buy in mtt the $1350 was nice none the less. the PLO and MTT wins im not going to count towards my goal, they pretty much just make up for the other night when i came home and spewed around for no reason. so ill just call it even. i think from now on im only going to play 2k hands and if im running good or have some good tables ill go for 3k. and on top of that im going to start playing some HU plo 1/2, that game should be fairly easy to beat, hopefully it will speed up my run to play 2/4 so i can start seeing some bigger results. maybe ill just pay ryan 4k an hour to watch him play some HU NLHE, i just want to be a PHENOMENON like him at that game.
on a side note i still dont have my 2k, starting to get more annoyed by this situation everyday. off too bed.

really...

im going to my brothers place to get food. next thing i know ill be hunting squirrels and rabbits.