your piss poor morally...

so, as for poker, i would like to fly to los angeles and play in rush hour traffic blind fold and see what happens. been running/playing bad past few days. im what i would like to call in a poker slump, its probably comparable to ichiro hitting .111 for a few months, ya that bad. i never worry about downswings in poker because variance is a huge part of being a gambler...take it or leave it , it is what it is. but on a positive note i havent played any 6max i have lost everything at 200 plo, ran absolutely horrid, ill go back to that game after a few more days maybe weeks of grinding out some more NLHE. My god i need to just sit down and start crushing again, walk on water maybe a few days get some confidence back. once you start owning a few clowns it all starts falling into place again.
as for life outside of poker i have been a boozehound as of late. hell, who doesnt like to drink. im confident that 70-72 percent of the greatest times of my life happened when i was either buzzed up nicely or blacked. i have some funny stories to tell, but ill save those for another time. well last sunday mornin as i was sleepin i overhear krup talking with sully saying that he didnt think he drank enough the night before. this comment confused the shit out of me considering the fact that he was puking in my bathroom after bar then proceeded to pass out in my hallway with his ass all over the place, so i would love to know what he is like when he drinks "enough".
ahhh and finally to my 2k, thats a whole new ballgame of WTF. so well ya ahhh really shit huh maybe no yes, FUCK YOU. ill explain that into detail probably tomorrow also. not sure if a facecrush is still in affect, not sure if i can do it to her or not.

lost 2k the shady way....

so today i finally found out that my ex gf decided to spend the 2k that i lent her. she says she paid for her car but we both know she is lieing. that is garbage. she went shopping. she went to the express, victorias secret, macys, and a few other places for clothes...if she says otherwise it all a lie and she knows it. she only told me a few places that she went in the mall but its all just a huge lie. i could tell just by talking to her, i know it her bullshit all too well. she then took my money to the grocery store and shipped her pathetic friend who has stolen from her before 500,, lol nice work you fuck. i needed that shit for multiple reasons and im going to facecrush her tomorrow. this is not something im going to just let slide, at first i thought i was but as i thoughta bout it longer and longer i decided that she was just too shady to let off the hook. i have never stolen shit from anyone nor been shady my entire fucken life, and for this to happen after all i ahve done for this girl is beyond unreal. im off to bed now the girls are going to be up in a few hours and are going to be beggin for some breakfast way too early for my liken.

took down a DONKament....

so i havent really been playing at all past few days, probably get back into that tomorrow sometime. but since my last session i have probably played 200 hands of break even poker and some HU plo where im up round $600 playing for about 10 minutes and quitting. thats probably why i havent really played. so anyways, went to big ds last night had a few drinks nothing eventful happened other then a few crazy blackjack hands. seriously if there was no such thing as blackjack i would be rich i think. i lost like 40 bucks or something, but i hate losing with a passion. chris showed up around midnight to give us a ride home at close since he worked close to there. when we got home we decided to play a little tourney with about 190 people or so in it for $26. ususally its just donk around, never really care, go all in with crap, and go to bed. well tonight we won a few hands early and then the starting to care set in. A few hours later we found ourselves at the final table and took it down. 1st place was nothing special but for a late night little buy in mtt the $1350 was nice none the less. the PLO and MTT wins im not going to count towards my goal, they pretty much just make up for the other night when i came home and spewed around for no reason. so ill just call it even. i think from now on im only going to play 2k hands and if im running good or have some good tables ill go for 3k. and on top of that im going to start playing some HU plo 1/2, that game should be fairly easy to beat, hopefully it will speed up my run to play 2/4 so i can start seeing some bigger results. maybe ill just pay ryan 4k an hour to watch him play some HU NLHE, i just want to be a PHENOMENON like him at that game.
on a side note i still dont have my 2k, starting to get more annoyed by this situation everyday. off too bed.

really...

im going to my brothers place to get food. next thing i know ill be hunting squirrels and rabbits.

when life gives you lemons, paint that shit gold...

what a day or should i say week. I think that its safe to say that its by far the longest of my life for multiple reasons. as for poker, it has went well. i played 1700 hands last night and won another $400, then came home from bar and lost my ass, not in mood to talk about that. im not going to count it towards my challenge i was wasted and doing lots of stupid shit that is not ever going to happen again.
so i decided to head over to take 2 video to try and rent the last few episodes of 24 season 4. when i come to find out that i have a $29 late fee, and they wouldnt let me rent because of the fact that i have a bad check written to them thats not accounted for.....ya is $8, wtf is my life coming too holy shit. so thats just the start to my UHmazing day. i then find out that im not getting my check on tuesday, wednesday, thursday comes nothing oh friday at latest, nope, ok saturday at a decent time maybe?? nope, saturday round 4 oclock how convienient. Oh thats not even the worst part, i got 3k of my 5k, the other 2k is being held hostige. so, i will be taking care of that asap, lets just hope that i even get it. so of my 5k that im supposed to have like 4 days ago, its alll pretty much gone the second i touch it. i finally got ahold of the holder of my check and she figured 3k would be enough to get by for the time being...LOL. I have learned alot the past few months and maybe having too much trust in people is a flaw of mine. i would have never seen this shit coming ever. she had to have got the check and cashed it right away to be able to get an actual check, not to mention the mother of this young lady told her she should take it into the authorities, how convienient. what in the fuck is going on here, im literally blown away right now. i have never fucked anyone over in my life so when this starts happening to me its a bit annoying to say the least. especially from her, because i have never done anything but be there always. so on top of all that im overdrawn in my checking account have $4 dollars in cash and contemplating what to do with that. on top of that my rent check is probably going to bounce now along with the multiple other ones, and i have my student loan place annoying me not to mention my cell phone that could go out any day. thank you so much for taking my check cashing it and paying me 3k, your the best, hwen i could have had it probably on fucken tuesday and everything would be fine.
so enuf rambling about the stupid situation that i got myself into, dont get me wrong i take full responcibilty for my actions and if we were good none of this would be happening. so, last night was pretty fun. i actually let loose with no worries for first time in a long time. miller picked me up and we headed to the hub of all places, weird right. so we get there and im waiting for a drink at the cadellac ranch and these 2 randoms come over to me and ask if im single, so i say yes. they then ask me if i would be interested in meeting their friend, so i do and it happens to be her bday and she wasnt really that attractive to me and seemed boring, and evidently i had competition. they found 2 guys in bar and brought them to her to choose? wtf, weird, i just kinda walked away it was kinda funny, i didnt say anything to this girl and about 10 minutes later they came back over to me and asked if i wanted to meet her again i declined, im not interested in some skeeeeeez at the hub anyways, she prob wasnt a skeeez but that words kinda funny. so then don shows his face and we get a few drinks, and shots, and more drinks. he then floated my drunk ass $100 to play blackjack and i dont think i won a hand. we then headed downtown to ob, where miller drives us there parks we get out then he just leaves. really jon, drop us off at the fucken door if your gonna just go it was cold outside. so anyways don and i had a few drinks there is sucked ass for the most part and headed to sports bar. i had a good time there, ran into some people that i knew took one too many shots of patron, and some girl gave me her number at the end of the night. we had something in common, we both liked patron, best part i think she even paid for a round. so she texted me today who is whats ur name, i was kinda happy about that because i had no idea what hers was. thats a good sign of a good night for most part i think, atleast i didnt wake up next to a random and regret what i had just done, i dont plan on that ever happening again, dont think thats my style anymore. so i texted her back whos this? perfect i now have her name so i dont look like a gigantic dbag, pretty sure i have a problem remembering names all the time. well now its time to grind and get ready for tonight, i think im going to paint fargo red 2 nights in a row. nucccca!

finished off last 600 hands +500...

so i figured since i had no excuse not to play i would get in my last 600 hands for the day, i ended playing 1150 and won another $500, so today went well. played 3500 hands with a total profit of $1600 and now up $2900 since the start of my challenge. im happy about my start for the most part. i think im going to head out tonight and celebrate my first big day of challenge.

good day today...

i just finished playing 2400 hands, wasnt in the mood for the last 600, i lost a few big hands the last 100 that might have tilted me so i quit. i ended up winning a little under $1100. i think i need to start using my left hand when i play, my right is starting to get tired its getting annoying. i still dont have holdem manager so i cant post exact results hopefully within next few days. so far into my challenge i am up about $2400, which im happy with given the fact im 8 tableing with no stats and im not completely into it all the time. got some other shit goin on still thats annoying me. i still have no check, hopefully i will get it one way or another today. so this morning i woke up about 7 am because of girls crawling into bed with me, we then slept until almost 9 and headed off to daycare round 11. they got into my closet again and started asking questions about old pictures i have in there. they are good at remembering faces. i think im going to watch some espn for a minute then workout round 7 or so. after that if there is no word on my check i have to ask about it again, something im not looking forward to doing givent the fact ill probably get either no responce or one that will maybe ruin my night. we will see what happens.